My addiction.

     Sugar. Sugar is my addiction. I woke up this morning and my body was craving it. I went downstairs ate a brownie for breakfast and washed that down with a soda. What I should have done was pour those bottles of soda down the sink, so I did just that.  I stood in front of my sink and opened every single bottle I had and as I was pouring them down the drain I had so much anxiety!! Its crazy that refined sugars have such a hold on my life. I'm sure there will be someone who is reading this post thinking that I'm dramatic and that its no big deal and that Soda is such an easy thing to give up. But this is just as bad of an addiction as anything else. Smoking, alcoholism, drugs all of those things cause harm on the body and refined sugar does just the same. I see it, not just on how my body looks, but how my body feels internally. My teeth, my hair and my skin are all being affected by this addiction. Black heads, eczema (that is scarring and that itches and hurts), the bad texture and dryness of my hair are all the after effect of abusing sugar.
     Sugar is so dangerous because it is so easy to access. I remember being in high school and my parents giving me money for lunch, and I would use it in the morning to buy "Hot Fudge Sundae" Poptarts and a 12 oz bottle of Sundrop. This would be my breakfast almost every morning. After school I would go home and we would have a refrigerator full of all of our favorite drinks. I would go through 3-4 cans of soda a day sometimes even more.  At the time I wasn't really paying attention to what I was putting in my body because I was also a lot more active. Between P.E. and going to the gym with my mom, I was burning all those extra calories I was drinking and eating on daily basis.
     This is a past and present struggle. The cravings are so hard to overcome. But I believe the first step was taken today, when I poured those drinks down the drain. Even though at the time it gave me anxiety, I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I cannot even begin to explain all the times it crossed  my mind to go to the fridge to get a soda today. I'm so relieved they're not there. I picked up a bottle of water and started drinking that instead. I know that this is going to make me feel so much better at the end of the day.
     Either tomorrow or Saturday I will be going grocery shopping. I plan on only buying things that will do my body good. I will post a haul on what I bought and what my plan is for the following week. Also on a good note,  I will be getting a treadmill from my mom. Thank you Mom!!! Things are really looking up :)  So to sum all this up, my goal for the rest of the week (even though there's only three days left) is to drink a lot of water and to maybe even replace a meal I would normally eat with a better option.

    Sugar is a serious thing my friends. I'm hoping I can keep up with all this. But with you guys by my side I know I can!

Stay tuned for the next post if your curious on what I am going to buy :)

Have a Blessed day/night!
-Laura